• Oversharing

    We may or may not have been guilty of oversharing on social media. We constantly share post of something cool we did, ate or a place we went. The reasons behind we share such posts maybe we like to seek attention, validation or approval?

    We constantly reach for our phone to document milestones or highlights. Sometimes, we forget to be present in the moment, rather we carefully curate the filtered photographs and edit the selfies, the laughline and frownlines. It seems inauthentic when we cover our flaws. Its is great to look back at the photographs, sometimes the memories will all be that is left. Also, capturing candid smiles and stolen shots are my favorites.

    I admit that I don’t always make the best life choices. Journaling and posting make us realize how we had changed hopefully for the best. There’s a saying that goes that we can buy food but not appetite. With that said, I am still struggling and learning to eat to nourish and be satisfied. By now, we should all know what food is beneficial to our health and yet we still make unwise food choices.

    I’m always browsing for fashion, home inspo and saving food recipes and hacks that I never tried. It’s 2021, we still can’t travel, not that our budget allows us to do it. I believe action is better than wishing or dreaming. Making plans and executing the plan. While it is easier said than done, we are not in a rush to go anywhere too soon.

    I fear the uncertain. In my inadequacies, God’s strength shines through. Slowly trusting God with the unknown gives me courage. I know I don’t have to fight the battle on my own.

    We overshare our proudest moments. How I see God’s goodness through the eyes of my son, my husband, my family and those who are around. How I am thankful that in the hardest times, we found comfort in the Lord. That is worth sharing about.

  • Paubaya ( to entrust somebody you love)

    Listening to the trending song “Paubaya” was a punch in the gut, it could be an anthem for all the forsaken/forbidden love stories.

    Anyone can relate to the story, how about who you-thought was meant to be was indeed just meant to be a part of your chapter… Sometimes, you could still see his smile, and could feel a warm tear in your cheeks whenever the thought of him appears without warning.

    There are many songs made about lost love and the distant memory still hold its charm whenever the lyrics plays on repeat in your head. It is tempting to look back and ask yourself what went wrong, there weren’t any real answers and the closure is left for the imagination.

    Alas, there is that special someone who was always meant to be with your special person, only the person is not you…as painful as it may feel, letting go and moving on is a process…

    A feeling that your heart could burst anytime.

    Your painted a poignant poetry, the reason I write stories because ours will never be.

    The memory is deceiving.Was the romance even real or did it it only existed in my head? Or only the parts that I wished to forget.

  • Pandemic Valentine’s

    There is one day a year , couples get to be overly mushy, sentimental, corny and cheesy without getting judged or cringed upon.

    One day a year when we can tell our partner how they complete us and all those cheesy romantic movie lines. How silly is it that such a holiday dictates couples to act differently (more affectionate than usual). Even in a pandemic, we go out on a limb to find that perfect rose or pressure ourselves cooking that special meal.

    Some lovebirds show affection differently. Some are showy, others likes privacy. Some could care less about celebrating Valentine’s. It is nice gesture to show genuine appreciation holiday or not. If you don’t get anything it is okay too.  Less expectations and more appreciation for because it is not measured by what we get in return. Love should’t cost a thing according to JLo.


    Be happy for the IG friend who created a Pinterest worthy epic Valentine themed charcuterie board. To the single, to the Divorcee,who  lost a spouse, heart broken, no holiday should make you feel unworthy of Love. Due to pandemic and economic reasons, it is perfectly fine not to have planned a fancy dinner. If it’s within the means, and you can afford extravagance, nobody will stop you either. Dont let a holiday force you to do things that is not within the range or not in the books.

    True Love is tested during tough times, through the years after the youth fades and petals wilted.When your tired. When you need a break. When you needed that exra hand. Whenever you get that support during ordinary and trying days. Through it all, the stories of how we overcome our struggles as a couple instills a lasting memory. Although it wouldnt hurt to cherish the memory with a box of chocolates and flowers too!

  • Wandavision

    A different perspective

    When to move on, let go, or keep on holding on is a question of time.

    I believe that one day, we will reach a point in our lives that we will realize that there will always be things that we desire to have, we want to change, things that we refuse to accept, and things that are permanent.

    I have always think that success equals happiness, but it is the definition of what satisfaction is for each individual that counts. Being comfortable in one’s skin, finding your purpose and becoming the true self you envision is one of the goals that we need to work on everyday.

    I used to get upset will the losses I encountered. The what ifs and the whys filled my heart with resentment. I realized that all the choices we made lead us to the road we are taking now. Instead of saying I should have done better, I tell myself, what can be done differently next time I encounter the same situation.

    If we make a list of everything that happens to us, the highs outweigh the lows depending on how we picture it. A heartbreak would pave the way of finding the right person. Broken things that cannot be mended needs to get replaced for a functional one. There are no right explanation to every experience we have, we just learn to accept what our reality is.

    Have you seen the new Marvel series “Wanda Vision” at Disney plus?I had watch the first 5 episodes and it surely captured my interest, it will keep you on your feet and guessing what will happen next. The television show scenes homages the 50’s,60’s,70’s and 80’s era and the actors did a great job portraying the role. I am an avid Marvel fan, although I am not versed with the language, I have to cross reference with the forums to keep up.

    In the series, Scarlett witch or Wanda created an alternate universe for herself and is controlling the minds of people in the small town against their volition. It is so exciting to see what will go on the next in the series.

    Would love to hear your thoughts. Until next time.

  • 40th Pandemic birthday

    I have always imagined my 40th birthday to be a spectacular event, it is a special passage of time to be celebrated like 7th, 18th, 21st birthday. A quarantine birthday is both unique and unforgettable. A birthday during the pandemic full of actualizations.
    Only a small circle of relatives are able to attend. Nothing extravagant. A simple and meaningful celebration is more than I ever could imagine it to be. I have all that I needed and so much more. There were no elaborate plans of going on a trip, eating out or stressing over a four course meal.
    Being 40s signifies a lot of changes in our body. It didn’t happen overnight. The weight gain adds a toll to our aching joints, not to mention the fat that seem to draw affinity in our belly and thighs. The decrease in muscle mass, bone density and hormone changes. Is there an extended warranty on our body parts?
    The pandemic forces our body and mind to slow down and prioritize what is important.
    Self care- it starts with a clear mind. A mental and health detox. Eating whole foods, back to the basics.
    Unplugging, disconnecting with social media and reconnecting with your passions.
    When I start making small changes, it had a domino effect in my relationships, well being, mental state. I start becoming a version of myself that I always wanted to be.

    We can live as productive and thrive in our 40s and beyond.

    Quotes on ageing and wisdom:
    “At age 20, we worry about what others think of us. At age 40, we don’t care what they think of us. At age 60, we discover they haven’t been thinking of us at all.” Ann Landers
    “Listen to your elder’s advice. Not because they are always right, but because they have more experience of being wrong…”
    “We don’t stop laughing because we grow old. We grow old because we stop laughing.” – George Bernard Shaw
    “Most people don’t grow up. They find parking spaces, honor their credit cards, get married, have children, and call that maturity. What that is, is aging.”
    ― Maya Angelou
    “When you’re young, you always feel that life hasn’t yet begun—that “life” is always scheduled to begin next week, next month, next year, after the holidays—whenever. But then suddenly you’re old and the scheduled life didn’t arrive.
    ― Douglas Coupland
    “Know that you are the perfect age. Each year is special and precious, for you shall only live it once. Be comfortable with growing older.” ~Louise Hay
    Take care of friendships, hold people you love close to you, take advantage of birthdays to celebrate fiercely. It’s the worrying — not the years themselves — that will make you less of a woman.” ~Patti LaBelle,
    “In the end, it’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your years.” ~Abraham Lincoln
    “I love living. I love that I’m alive to love my age. There are many people who went to bed just as I did yesterday evening and didn’t wake this morning. ~Maya Angelou
    Old age isn’t so bad when you consider the alternative.
    Maurice Chevalier
    Ageing is a privilege not a predicament.
    Martin Firrell
    Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don’t mind, it doesn’t matter.
    Satchel Paige
    That’s the time of your life when even your birthday suit needs pressing.
    Bob Hope
    Wear your years with pride, like a badge of honor, for you have conquered. You have thrived. You have survived!
    Anonymous
    There’s one advantage to being 102. There’s no peer pressure
    Anonymous

  • Friends without Benefits

    Social network has become an emotional outlet nowadays. Times have change, the internet community has become a powerful tool in marketing and communication. Usually whenever we see post online, we ask ourselves, are we are seeking approval, validation, or attention or do we just want to air out our sadness and frustrations?

    Do we have an hidden agenda? I believe that supporting friends in social platform doesn’t cost anything, it can simply be liking and supporting a a good cause. Sometimes, posts can be repetitive, we can always filter the content that we want to see, without being disrespectful.

    We post our life events, our simple highlight reels that may seem mundane to others. We post the simple things that make us smile, like a meal we enjoyed. It may be interpreted as humble bragging but in reality, these are just tiny snippets of our lives orchestrated just to embrace the moment.

    Being coop out at home, we long for social interactions. Sometimes, the highlight of our day would be a group chat message, a funny meme, a video call or a text message out of the ordinary. Would be nice to get an unexpected message from time to time that doesn’t involve a favor. Like a simple” I am thinking of you- hope you are doing well- kinda thought.

    Generally, we check our messages first thing, when we think of it. Usually it could be grocery lists, errands to run, reports to finish or more work stuff. It’s hard to ignore especially when the sender can see the message was delivered and seen. This instant messaging feature is violating our sacred space, it just demands a response right then, not to be rude of course.

    Funny story, I received a friendly message from an long time guy friend, what I thought was a romantic gesture was just an attempt to borrow money. Don’t get me wrong, these are hard times, I know he is sincere and it takes a lot of guts to ask for favors. I hope I can help him without thinking that there will be any issues or obligations, especially with money involved. It’s just that complicated.

    What I realize is there would always be some sort of misunderstanding when it comes to direct messaging. Sliding into DMS is the new way of saying hello when you want to have a private conversation with someone. I am so glad we are at the age past the dating scene. Hopefully, we are wiser, not judgemental, be respectful and not to assume anything.

    Hope you are entertained, just a break from serious posts.

  • Selfishness in covid times

    There is a different sense of urgency in pandemic times. We all want to get in a safe position, away from fear, restlessness and worrying. It feels like 2021 has a great potential since we are all starting from the rock bottom. What it seems like is a continuation of the apocalypse. Groundhog day all over again in steroids.

    Nobody is complaining anymore. It seems that majority has adjusted to the safety procedures. We are still in survival mode, we go with the flow, and slowly we are adapting to the change.

    Sometimes it can be physically and emotionally straining. We have to preserve our sanity and grasp the reality. The more we have to take care of ourselves. Sometimes we have to be selfish. We have to prioritize what is important and what is not. We have to distance ourselves to what is draining our energy.

    There are things that causes unecessary stress and drama. Not all battles are worth indulging into.

    Worries and problems are part of life. We deal with them the best we can and tackle them as they come. It helps to have a worry journal. You can organize your thoughts and feelings on a piece of paper.

    Observing and respecting personal boundaries is a must. We can’t change other’s belief or opinion. It is not our job to agree with everything.

    We have our highs and lows. When we are happy, we tend to be lax and think we are invincible. Stay humble. Savor each joyous moment, because they soon be a memory. The bitter days wont last either.

    At the end of the day, we realize that the non trivial matters isnt worth sweating about. And we could focus on healing our hearts and mind.

  • Covid Vaccination Experience

    The moment has arrived that Covid vaccination is available for the general public. Getting the vaccination was a personal choice, not trying to be relevant or attention seeking, a lot of thought processing and skepticism , information seeking and prayers was involved.

    Vaccination Record Card

    There are numerous side effects and not to mention the horror stories of individuals having an allergic reaction to it. We had all joked about getting the Corona shot. It is all “fun and games” until it is your turn to get it. It is a casual conversation to common folks, if you are going to take it. I always tell that I will wait until I am ready.

    Me and my husband finally had the courage and took the first dose this weekend. My husband had us scheduled a few days ago when it became available, the process was quick and easy. A QR barcode that was emailed to be scanned at the premises. We were surprised that we don’t have to get out of the car.

    As we arrived at the location (fire station), there were several attendants that directed us to the site. It was only a few cars ahead of us, we had a late afternoon appointment. The attendant verified our information and asked if we ever had anaphylactic reaction with shots before. They handed us the list of (several) side effects and she read the consent forms and have us sign electronically.

    She give us the card which had the lot number and the vaccine manufacturer. She explained the the procedure and told us that afterwards we will be observed for 15 minutes across the parking lot. It was assuring that they told us what to expect, that we might have a fever, swelling in the site as with other vaccine reactions. The inoculation was painless. I felt the soreness of the arm afterwards.

    The researches on the after effects of the vaccines is still limited due to the time frame constructions. I try to not to read too much information on the internet. A lot of conspiracy theories and different political is nerve wracking.

    There are risks to be considered especially to the immuno compromised, trying to conceive or pregnant, the young and the old. Still a majority of the population remain undecided whether to take it or not. Getting the shot is not mandatory. It is a preventive measure, but we still have to observe the precautions. It is not a ticket to be have imprudent and reckless decisions.

    I’m thankful to have the opportunity share my experience. I have high hopes that whatever the outcome, that it would be for the best. Stay blessed and safe everyone!

  • Uninspired

    The New Year brings the best in us. New motives, new hopes. It brings a challenge. It can bring an uneasy feeling.Am I going to crush 2021 or my spirits is going to be crushed again. Either way, Im glad Im still here. Aren’t we all glad that we are still standing!

    What I dont like about having anxious thoughts is that what your negative thoughts becomes your own reality. And suddenly you have lost all the creative juices you thought you once have.

    My troubles only has pushed me to my limits, Don’t we all have these lingering problems? There are as annoying as a dripping faucet that needs to be taken care of right away, and there are some that we continue to ignore hoping that it will resolve its own. Sometimes we have to face the consequences and man up and solve it the best way possible.

    What do you do when you are uninspired? you do what you think is good for your well-being, may it be singing, staring into oblivion, a walk under the clouds or sharing your deepest darkest thoughts. Whatever it may be good for your Soul… and it might shift your mood.

  • If the timing is right

    The beginning of the new year heralds a lot of emotions, recollections of the distant past, regrets and comebacks. It signifies the things that you want to change and the good habits that you want to keep.

    But the new years eve is not the same as Cinderella’s transformation at midnight. It is more than that. We are still the same person with the same persona that can’t be fixed with a just a flicker of a magic wand. Our character is a summation of our thoughts, our fears and our ideals. In the Disney movie “Soul”, each of the personalities was assigned and honed to fit the individual. The main character was longing for that “Spark” of life. It is all that there is in living?

    Don’t we ask the same questions. Where is the lie? Is my thoughts fooling me? Am I suppose to be somewhere? Am I suppose to be someone living the dreams in a non existent parallel world? Our minds can only imagine the endless possibilities in store for us.

    Anxiety has become a staple in my life, it is debilitating, or the depression still is haunting. It is etched of the fiber of my being that I need to constantly face. Finding your motivation is something that you work on, like personal hygiene, you have to do it everyday. There are days that you loose all the spark of life and all you can feel is gloom.

    We find ourselves with the simple moments that breathes inspiration to our grief stricken soul. Looking back, the dull moments in the past are a catalyst that shape my viewpoint. In the midst of the insecurities, low self-esteem, and chaos in your mind, the overwhelming peace can still be sought. We pray more when our hearts are troubled. We don’t realize we are the “Lost souls” that needed to be saved. Hence,` I truly cannot rely on my own efforts.

    I can only pray for wisdom and for the right timing of the best things of yet to come.

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